(Autor Conhecido)
There are so much in this world I’m unaware of, there is so much I don’t know, but of this one thing I’m sure: I loved you.
And it had nothing to do with your beauty – oh yeah, because this you are so full of – or with your kindness – that seems never ending sometimes -, or with the fact that you loved me back. I loved you in so much diferent ways, and for reasons you may not even realize…
See, I loved you because you dare. And because when you laugh, you close your eyes just a little bit, and because when I was sad, you tried your very best to make me smile – in fact, I loved you for you made me smile. I loved your smile, I loved you because when you smile, you do it with the whole face, not only the mouth.
I fell in love with you because you match simplicity and haughtiness in every single move of yours, and because you laugh of everything that might be fun, and sometimes of what might not be so fun at all, but at the same time, you take everything too serious for your own good.
I loved you because you just don’t care what people think of you, and do what you have to do if you believe it’s the right think to do, but I also loved the way you work so hard to clean up your name when comes out some lie about you. I loved you because you are a woman of values, that don’t betray yourself.
I loved you because the waves of your hair follow the shape of your face, and you have that cute little hole in your chin, and because you have those tiny hands that can perfom miracles if you like it to – in all the meanings of the words. I loved you because you made me chicken soup when I was sick, and learned how to make sautè potatoes because you knew I loved it. I loved you because you learned how to play Half Life just to keep me in company, and held me against your cheast and dried my tears when I couldn’t stop them to fall, and because you’d let be do the same for you.
I loved you because you trusted me enough to generate life, and gave me the chance to be the man of your dreams, and taught me how to be the best father in the whole world.
I loved you, because you gave me the best days of my life, and stood by me on the worst of them, and you had forgiven me for not being there for you like you were for me. I loved you because of the incredible woman you were, heartbreaking and crying for your biggest lost, but still finding strenght to try and fix my heart and tell me everything was going to be okay and we were going to be fine.
Well, we weren’t. I am fine, you are fine. But we are not fine. Because if right now I’m trying to convince you that I really loved you as much as I could, with all I’ve got, it is because I think you don’t know how deep and big is this felling I have for you.
But must of all, I loved you because, even knowing we belong each other, even if you want us to be together, you can be reasonable enough to show me you won’t make me happy if you are not happy. And your happiness lies where I can’t go right now, and my hapiness lies where you don’t want to go. So it is a fact that we are made to each other, but it is also a fact that our lives just don’t match, not in this moment of our lives.
So I have to say I understand your decision, and I can’t say I’m all against it. But I have to say either that I hope our love can wait for our lives; because I loved you. I loved each moment of this five years, and I still do. I still love you. You are still the woman of my life.
So, I hope with all my faith that I can be, at some point, your happy ending. Because I know you are mine, so please try to have me as the man of your dreams for just another five years or plus, and then I know we’ll can make this work, and I know we’ll be together, happily ever after.
